The Difference between love and In Love

I wanna meet the one That ii can love from here til then!!...The one who i can love..without reason..and have that be reason Enough.. There'sz a difference...Between Love..and In Love...You can say you love someone, but that is no different from the love you show your mother or your brother or sister...But being in love..Thats like an upgraded crush..An enfatuation..Being in love is a purely great feeling..Being in love is something you would wanna show... There comes a time in life where you learn the difference between loving who you're with...And being in love with that person that makes your heart flutter..Theres no age limit..No time limit..Its all about how you feel in your heart..ii kno wut ii am...Which one are you? This question goes out to everyone who reads this...Really think about it..Do you love..or are you In Love?!? Only you would know...

Only Just My Fantasy...

I hear your name and I smile,
My heart beat faster..My palms are sweaty,
My breathes are weak but I am still Strong
I close my eyes and I could feel you,
physically and spiritually,
The ro0m gets dark and I am alone with you...
My hearts intwined with yours...
I smell your scent and I melt,
Like Liquid..My heart and soul is a puddle
Made from raindrops on a hot summers night,
I feel this way for you,
For you are..
My fantasy..My sweet dream..My goodmorning,
But what do you feel?
I ask because I hear of others,
Not of me when it comes from you...
Do you feel as I do?
Do you long for me?
Do you think of me? Feel Me..See my smile in your mind
As I do yours?
Or is it just me...with a childish crush
Nothing more...
And sadly in my heart
you will always be..Unforgettably..Only just my fantasy..
My sweet dream...But someone elses goodmorning :(

That "CHICK"

i used to be that "im not leavin until i got enough proof" type chick, but when it was right before my eyes i just excused it every time. that "if u walk out that door dont come back" type chick, but always welcomed a nigga wit open arms. that "just let me go if im not your one and only" chick but knew in the back of my mind i was one of many. used to be that "id do anything for u" chick even though he didnt do a damn thing for me. that "i dont care bout them other b*tches" type chick when deep inside it killed me. used to be the "just keep it real wit me" chick even though i already knew the truth. cant believe i was the "put that on us" type chick knowin he didnt give a damn about that. fasho that "he treats me better than anyone else" chick when regardless he was still doin me wrong. and mos deff that "maybe if i just stick around he'll learn to really love me" chick, but most people dont realize what they got until its gone. that "cant nobody love him like i do" chick when really i felt like a "i need love too" chick. got tired of bein that "im sorry for everything" chick when i never did sh*t but be his "down ass b*tch" type chick. well thanks to those niggas- now im just that "f**k it! if u dont love me- somebody else will! so DONT get too comfortable" chick!!!

SELF ESTEEM SHOT

Beauty Imperfectly


Ugly, too tall, too fat, too skinny


Imperfections all over, I could never be pretty


Trying to be myself would never be any good


Would take my own life to stop the suffering if I could


Dreading all mirrors to hide my face


Just feeling like nothing than an utter disgrace


Why do I feel this way


I know its not cool


But look at me this way I only see a fool


Someone who thinks she could be among the best


But keeps disappearing, among the pretty rest


Because you see these models with the perfect figure and perfect smile


And you think, wow I want to be like her


Just for a little while


You want to feel wanted, you want to fit in


But you feel so unpretty...in your own skin


I know how hard it is to feel this way, the way it eats at you day by day


But you see I dont feel this way anymore


Becuase I see


That God made me special and aint no other way I'd rather be


And I want to share my new happiness with the whole world


Becuase " I am beautiful" are three very strong words


So I'll say "I am beautiful" no matter what people will say


And I love ME in the prettiest possible way.

True Black Beauty

Is my darkness too much for you?
Or should I cake on endless foundation
And look life the rest of the nation
More empty artwork, made to look untrue


Is the roundness of Queens's hips?
Not written in the "Model Look" script
Should I dress myself in baggy clothes?
to cover up parts that your race has opposed


What about the bridge in my nose
A representation that I should become another one of
Fashion's Ho's
Another Do Another Don't
Another I would but I wont


Giving myself a nameless title
In a world where money is vital
Where truth can't be seen by the naked eye
So I hear by imply


That my sleek jawbone
& Unique skin tone
Is just another blessing that the lord cast upon me
So I hear by guarantee


That I am not your average Nation's Ho

I'm Sad :(

Teary eyes and fake smiles,
are what become of my silent cries,
The face you see is not ever me,
and this is the way I want it to be,
Yes I am sad, many emotions running free,
Locked up inside but its the happy one you see,
Depression, devastation, sorrow and pain,
are trials of my daily life that drive me insane,
Why do I feel this way do you ask?
Why do I shield myself and wear this mask?
Put yourself in my shoes, would you want people to know the real you?
Would you want people to know why you act the way you do?
When you answer these questions you will see what I mean,
Why I would never want the real me to be seen,
So don't judge me by what you see on my face,
Becuase what I go through each day will never be your case.