THE SEARCH

i been searchin my whole life...
every time i thought i found him- i stood corrected.
still felt alone. still felt neglected.
i was wrong so many times that i could say i lost count.
its obvious to say, it was never him that i found.
please believe i always wanted him to smile
temporary happniess is for those in denial.
i already had potential- indeed it was true
but i couldnt find my destiny until i found him too.
i promised not to be stubborn and keep him all to myself
eventually id give way and share with someone else.
id introduce him to a world where he'd feel no shame
make him proud to be himself and define his own name.
give him strength to ignore the enemies in his path
and courage to keep standing until hes the last.
but why couldnt i find him? i looked everywhere.
granted im a good woman, no one seemed to care.
just as i was about to give up
after all this searchin i realized one thing-
i wasnt lookin for a man. i was tryin to find ME.
now i understand its all about whats inside.
so i replaced every "him" with "me" and "im".