God has gifted me with the uncanny ability to run on empty when other people would have dropped on the side of the road. For a long time now iv been driving on fumes if I was to do a self assessment I don’t know how it is that I haven’t fallen out, how I haven’t just burst out in tears how I haven’t had a nervous breakdown as a matter of fact people who get close to my life and space ask I don’t know how you do it.
God’s grace will stretch you when natural resources ran out I am anointed for empty I’m anointed for empty cuz if other people where as broke as long as I was they would have given up but there was something inside of me that told me I refuse to break down I know I should have stopped a long time ago but if I am honest if I stop I might just break to pieces so I just gotta keep going hoping that while I’m driving God will give me enough energy and enough strength I know this is foreign for those of you who have everything, I know its alien for those of you who have a whole lot of support I know this sounds outlandish for those of you who have never been in a situation where you are by yourself.
See there’s sometimes when I don’t feel anything on the inside and I don’t know how it is that I didn’t cuss folk out , but all I know is that even when I hit rock bottom God said I put in you a reserve tank so even when it looks like I’m on empty...my Cup still runs over. See sometimes God will test us to see how far we will go on nothing. I Haven’t heard any word from God I haven’t had any confirmation the only thing I am holding to is a promise, it’s been sometime since he made that promise and if I’m honest with you I almost gave up on God, I almost gave up on church..And if I’m honest with you Praise people made me sick, shouting people got on my last nerve cuz I wanted to know why they were shouting over their stuff when I didn’t have mine yet! But you see every time I think I’m going to break God breathes into me an overflow and an increase.
See if you connected to God it doesn’t matter what other people cut off, cuz if I’m connected to the source No weapon formed against me shall prosper, I was cut off from some money, I was cut off from some friends I was cut off from university, I was cut off from a job, but as long as I was connected to God everything was still flowing. God sometimes will cut off the supply of the stuff that’s been feeding you. But I’m so glad that I aint your Average...because if you were cut off from stuff as long as I was you’d probably not have made it But I’m so glad I stayed connected and even with no money I got Joy and the Joy I have no man can take away!
<< Ecclesiastes 9:11 >>I have seen something else under the sun: The race is not to the swift or the battle to the strong, nor does food come to the wise or wealth to the brilliant or favor to the learned; but time and chance happen to them all.
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