so maybe im not the only one who loves you.. and maybe im not the only one that you "love", but how can that be? if you feel thats possible, you just havent felt true love yet. when you can share your heart with more than one person, youre not ready to promise anyone your heart at all. why take the time to convince a person you love them and have to repeat yourself all over again to another girl? why cant you just be sincere about what you say? what does a girl have to do in order to make you realize that her heart isnt to be played with, but to be taken in your hands and protected through any and every situation. its true, love is allowing someone to hurt you, but trusting them not to. but when that does finally happen, when all has failed and things happen to go wrong.. what is the right thing to do? i know my love is sincere. i know how i really feel... ive told you everything there is to know, anything i ever thought you might get mad at in the future if you found out by someone else... you know how i felt about other guys even though you didnt want to hear it. but YOU.... i opened up with you so much more, i let you in places no one else has ever been able to go.. i ACTUALLY TRUSTED YOU! and i have myself to blame. you swear to god you want to be with me, that you love me, that theres no one else for you.. but who else did you say that to? why do you feel the need to keep other females holding on to you when im supposedly the only one you care for. my love isnt enough for you? you need to be reminded by other girls that they still love you? or is it that when youre mad at me you need someone to run to so you can get your mind off of the one you REALLY love? what is the point of gassin other girls.. if thats what youre really doing? i dont provide enough for you... i dont give you any and everything you need? maybe i dont love you how you want me to or maybe i dont say all the things that every other girl has, but that doesnt mean i dont feel that way. maybe i was trying to keep myself from getting hurt all over again... maybe i wanted to pace myself in this relationship and let you know in my own way how i felt. but just because i dont call a thousand times a day, or i dont say something or do something exactly the way you want it... means i dont love you the way i say i do? do you even know what its like to have your heart broken? do you know what its like to sit up in the dark the whole night just starin at yourself in the mirror because you cant believe you let someone have your heart but all they did was throw it back in your face? do you know what its like to share your deepest secrets and then have someone lie to you about how they will NEVER lie to you or making promises that they knew they wasnt going to keep? did it ever occur that you just might actually fall in love with someone and that they are going to do what youve done to everyone else? why is it that you must bite the hand that feeds you? is it your ego.. is it your REPUTATION that youre trying to maintain? its understood that its hard for you to be open about your feelings, and when you actually are open its understood that what youre doing should be appreciated.. and it is, because sometimes i swear im alone in this relationship. ive tried to change up my bad habits... and youve changed me in ways that i couldnt even control.. now i care about all the little things that you do and i feel like i need to question you about stuff and that i should be jealous... but that was never who i was.. i hate caring about that stuff! but its not fair when you go off and say the things you do then expect me to just be okay with it. i put up with who you are because i love you.. but i wont put up with this extra stuff. im not trying to go through this anymore. I TOLD YOU IM DONE CRYING.... IVE RUN OUT OF THINGS TO SAY.... theres nothing else i can do to make you believe that what i say is real. or maybe you do believe me but you dont care? because you dont do things like that to people you "LOVE"... you got a hell of a touch, having all these girls SO in love with you, doing wrong by themselves just to spend 15 minutes of down time with you or just to hear you tell them you love them back... how do you do it? how do you live with yourself knowing that youre hurting not just 1, but a few people? i dont doubt that you love me... but im just not sure you can love someone and do the things you did. you say youre in love... but if that was the case
"Love should have brought you home..."
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